Week 2 of Lent

My husband getting ready for his first helicopter ride

Well I don’t know about you but I feel I have been thrown some doozies over the past two weeks and in some instances I have caved but at least not without noticing.

I have been told before that noticing is half the battle. Whew! I certainly hope that’s the case otherwise I have failed miserably. Last weekend my husband had a hiking accident where he fractured 2 vertebrae, broke 4 ribs, and collapsed his left lung and had to be rescued by helicopter. Ouch…no kidding.

Those quick 4 letter words come so easily to my mind and out of my mouth. I have gone through a wide range of emotion from feeling inadequate about being able to take care of him, to anger for him hiking in inclement weather, to being overwhelmed by the added changes to our lifestyles. I have felt selfish, tired, frustrated and so much more. I have cried, laughed and wanted to hit something. I have wanted time off from Lent…

I know there is a lesson here; sometimes I just don’t want to learn it. UGH! Why is it that my favorite swear words a great, expressive, easy to say 4 letter words. I have been really working on finding words to replace them but nothing seems to sound just right. So now I’m down to attempting to forget about them all together. Not so easy.

So my journey continues, attempting to think good thoughts with compassion and patience. When I take the time to breath everything seems better, it’s in the height of the moment when my mind switches…another good notice. Now it’s not like I use swear words all the time, it just really is inappropriate to use them at all. Etiquette and leadership again take precedence; anger and frustration never get the job done. What’s that saying “you can catch more bees with honey than you can vinegar” so spreading honey and being grateful is what I am trying to do. How about you?

Up, up and away!!!

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